Part of my issue is that I have a very black & white personality and don't really know how to do anything part way. So, in my mind, a return to work also means a return to my regular work routine which goes something like this: get up at 4:30/5am and work out; quickly eat breakfast and then hit the work e-mail; work straight through the rest of the day until I go to bed at 9 or 9:30pm (sometimes with a break around 6:30pm to make dinner). I tried that for a couple of days, and well, I'm definitely not ready for a return to the old routine quite yet. So, I'm re-setting expectations for the next few weeks until I'm closer to "normal" (and/or ready for surgery #2). I still plan to return to the office next week but will also keep a couple of work-from-home days to ease the transition. I also need to do a better job of setting my computer, iPhone and iPad aside at an earlier time to give my brain some time to rest. I've started getting horrible headaches this week and I think I've been running on overload!
On a positive note, my physical strength is continuing to improve. So far this week I've managed 45 minutes on my bike trainer, some simple strength/core work and two walk/runs (intervals of 2' run/3' walk). So, let me tell you about what happened on my Wednesday morning run:
I actually had about a minute - a full minute! - where I felt completely normal!
I was walking/running around the indoor track at our gym listening to my headphones. I think I got lost in the moment (I was running at the time) listening to my music. I suddenly realized that for the first time since my surgery I was not thinking about how weird/uncomfortable I felt and my running stride felt pretty natural too! It was glorious! I am hoping for many more of these moments, and then eventually days, to come!
Hope you are all having a great week!